When your head and heart are consumed with fear, you’ll have no room for dreams. Food for thought indeed. 

So I’m back from an amazing and awesome holiday. It was a great getaway and exactly what I needed. Really thankful that the boyfriend took all the time away from his work to plan the entire itinerary. Maybe we’ll find our retirement home somewhere in Tuscany in the future. We’ve had so much fun in the mundane, and moments that can never be replaced or replicated. 

So yes, last chance to bum before work begins on Monday.  Day 2 of bumming and I’m kinda sick of it already - no goals, nothing to work towards to - this is not fun.

The truth is - I’m dreading Saturday. Increasingly so, I do not feel very much at home, and I dread the “cleaning up” that is to come, and “judgement”, maybe? Thank God for a few familiar faces that get me through it. Praying for His discernment and grace. And the courage to walk away if necessary.